I'll only say one thing to this: in the Bible, hope means steadfast confidence for the future; but, you cannot have any confidence for the future, since you think that you could easily lose it all.
Trust in the Lord Jesus Christ, not your own efforts. If you trust in your own works, then you will be with the goats, on judgment day.
To piggy-back on this, Biblical "hope" has no uncertainty to it. That is how it differs from our modern-day idea of "hope".
You "hope" your girlfriend will say yes to your marriage proposal.
You "hope" you will win the lottery.
You "hope" that your boss will give you a raise.
But Biblical hope is for something you have assurance of, but haven't received yet.
Biblical hope would be your lottery numbers being chosen, but you haven't gone down to claim your prize money yet.