- "I know what to do howbeit my problem is getting myself to do it. I am on anti-psychotic medication which make me tired and lethargic which is why I cannot seem to get control over myself. I have but one enemy (myself) and I find I have very little control over Him. How can I motivate myself sometimes I cannot even get out of bed morning with feeling of darkness within me which is painful beyond endurance. I would not wish this curse on anyone. I would rather have physical pain than mental pain anytime. Sorry for long story; but it helps to talk things thru. Amen?"