We've been over this before... there are MANY atheists who seriously tried to find divinity and came up empty-handed.
I'd say that this is the mistake then.
I didn't go looking for divinity. No Jesus followers I've ever met and talked with went looking for divinity.
So, if you failed to find divinity, then perhaps you should stop trying to find divinity, and simply come to YHVH, on YHVH's terms. He's plainly stated that those who seek him with a whole heart will find him.
He even said that he will give you a heart to know him.
Quite frankly, I don't know why anyone would think that they could find that which doesn't exist, while dismissing what has been stated, for Him who does exist.
Your arm waving and excuse making doesn't take away that fact. The thing is you won't accept the fact that they looked when they tell you they didn't find anything.
As you started with a false view, I'd say that you placed yourself outside the playing field.
Let YHVH know when you are ready to come to him on his terms.