So your position might be better characterized as
"fear of god is the beginning of knowing things about god"
?
There are many different kinds of knowledge.
Just because you know how to write words doesn't mean that you are willing to experience.
This is the problem with atheism.
They claim to have been christians at some point in the past, and yet say they never actually met Jesus.
Which means that you have a few problems.
1- you weren't actually paying attention to whatever it was that you read.
Because if you were actually paying attention, you would have read/seen
As a follower of Jesus, you are his fiance. I.e., the church is the bride of Jesus.
As a follower of Jesus you are the sibling of Jesus. He said that whosoever does the will of God is his brother, sister and mother.
As a follower of Jesus you are an adopted child of God.
So, if you actually never met him, then you were never actually a follower of Jesus.
In cultural terms, you were a CINO.
Christian in name only.
2- you missed the spiritual rebirth. It's a simple question really.
Jesus said that unless we are born again we cannot enter the Kingdom of God.
It's kind of like electricity flowing through the circuit.
Without electricity, no matter how much you play with the switches, you'll never be able to get light.
3- righteousness or a right relationship with God...
Jesus said that unless our righteousness exceeds that of the scribes and pharisees, we cannot enter the Kingdom of God.
It's not enough to merely be a moral person. We have to have an inner morality of the heart.
Only God has the power to impart this.
4- become a child.
Jesus said that unless we are like little children, we cannot enter the Kingdom of God.
It's not about being gullible, or childish and a spoiled brat.
It's a change of heart, and learning a new way of thinking.
God actually describes it in the old testament book of Ezekiel. Chapter 36, verses 25-27.
God pours clean water on us.
God cleanses us from our sin and false beliefs and assumptions.
God removes the old stony heart of flesh and gives us a new heart of flesh and places a new spirit in us.
He then places his own Holy Spirit in us to live in agreement with his statutes and ordinances.
It's actually quite profound.
Not merely adhering to a collection of interesting philosophical ideas. But engaging God as our Father and Jesus as our brother.
So, whatever you want to think christianity is about, it's far more profound than you can fathom.