As you say you are relying one what others say instead of listening to God Himself. Jesus said that in that day ye shall ask me nothing but go to the Father for yourself and he will give it you. That is the one you should rely instead of mans opinions as you say you rely on. That right there should tell you someting about who I am is if Jesus said go Father yourself. But evidently Jesus words dont count.
You can read it in Hebrew, Greek, Latin, English, and a host of others, fact is I am has been here from the beginning Adam was the first to be as I AM, Jesus didnt come along for another 4000 years, read it yourself. The same I AM who came to Adam where he became like Him is the same I AM who came to Jesus in Matt 3:16 and did the same in hm. Read it yourself. Buyt evidently that doesnt count for you.
The real issue is that you never have me the same I AM, as for me I am that I am because of He who is in me just as these received form Him His same mind, same Spirit, same disposition and walk in His same light. ANd you can read how you are supposed to be as I AM as well, Read 1 John 3 and when you see Who I AM is ye shall be like Him as well. And evidently what is written doesnt count for you.
You dont have a clue what you are talking about from lack in being as I AM is as these were like Him. Abraham, Moses 120 all became like Him. Your religious beliefs will never expose who I Am is to you as He did in all of these, especially Jesus.
See Matt 3:16 this is when all of who I Am is was opened to Jesus. But to you that doesnt count.
There is One that you do not know and it is the same One who all of these became like. But to you that doesnt count.
So these you say you rely on dont have a clue who God is and what they are talking about. WHich explains your comment clearly.