All you can draw upon to judge God is your anthropomorphic view of God. God is not a man.It is what it is. If the evidence points to there being no Christian God, then I will believe there is no Christian God, even if I do not like the consequences of that. I cannot choose to think God exists because I would prefer reality to be that that.
Is it different for you? Do you think Christianity is true because that is what you want to be the case, rather than because that is what evidence points to?
Not sure I get your point here.
In what sense is God love? Presumably you are not saying the words are synonyms.
If God is love, why does he choose to send people to the hell he created? What sort of love is that?
So again I ask, how is that love? How do you reconcile sending people to eternal torture with love?
I find it disturbing that we are not permitted to think about whether God is good. Why would God punish us - send us to eternal torture - if we question if he is good or not? I think the only answer is that God is not good. He wants us to believe he is good, but it is not true, and to stop anyone saying that it is not true, he declares that those who judge him will be tortured forever.
It is an Orwellian totalitarian regime where people are tortured if they fail to spout the one-party propaganda. It is a rejection of truth and freedom. It is the antithesis of good - but we dare not say that!
No one is stopping you from constantly claiming that God is bad. In fact you did it yesterday, you'll likely do it today.
You have three score and ten to get all the bitter bile out, to tell the world you hate the propoganda of love, to judge God for yourself, with your own mouth, with your own heart.
After that God makes His judgment. He is impartial, not biased like humans.
What won't happen is people like me having to hear people like you for eternity. Love is not required to suffer that long.
You seem to miss the connection between you saying "orwellian totalitarian regime", and you somehow being not allowed to say it. Your heart says it for you, and at times your mouth or fingers comply. But again, only for a limited time. You just want to do it for eternity. Maybe you can, but I don't think you'll have an audience for your words.