That's what it felt like when I earnestly prayed as an atheist. I didn't know or even believe that God existed but "if you are there please answer my prayer".
As soon as you think that the first prayer was answered, you are more likely to think that subsequent prayers are answered - how do you determine whether or not the
first prayer was answered?
Did you pray for something obviously "miraculous"? An amputated limb to regrow?
Did other people see the "answer"?
And He did. That was the start of my becoming agnostic [...]
The moment you concluded that he answered, you were a theist.
You should give it a try.
As many have tried and failed as tried and "succeeded". As I've said, I am not interested in "confirmations" that rely solely on my internal perceptions - "funny feelings", "inner peace", or other such nonsense that can be the result of mere belief itself; I want something that can
only be the work of the god.
If you go to a "World's Strongest Man" contest, you don't go to watch them lift teacups; if they're as strong as they claim to be, you want to see them lifting cars and pianos.
If there's a miraculous god out there, I'm going to need to see the miracles.
(And if your god only reveals himself to those that seek, but refuses to give most of us a reason to seek him, he's going to be frustrated, isn't he?)