I am guilty as charged. For I find it impossible to know the truth of God’s word without using the rational side of my brain and theorizing different explanations in order to work out the best, most reliable one. I am unlike you who apparently knows absolute truth through some spontaneous event not involving any thinking at all. Must be nice to be you.
Why then did Paul tell us in 1 Corinthians chapters 1-3 that God has chosen the weak and foolish things of this world to confound the wisdom of the wise of this world?
The reason why God did this should be obvious, it is because they are the peop;le who will seek and trust God for the wisdom and knowledge instead of trusting in their own intellect and reasoning processes.
I find this to be the biggest problem with those who profess Christianity in the world today, for they not utilizing the mind of God that was in Christ by the Holy Spirit and instead they are doing their own thinking and reasoning with the natural mind.
What they are doing, is substituting their own intellect and human reasoning for the right way of learning through the Holy Spirit and that is also why they are all in disagrement on many issues of the scriptures as well.
This is exactly what the church at Corinth was doing likewise and that is why they were in divisions also and although the churches don't want to acknowledge this and call their divisions "denominations" they are nevertheless divisions just the same and it is because they are doing exactly what the church of Corinth was doing.
What you need to do is give all of that up and start asking and seeking and waiting and trusting for God to lead you into all truth by his Spirit, because it is obvious that your method isn't working for you, you might think it is but it isn't, for you don't seam to have a clue about what Paul is really saying in Romans 9-11 at all.
You need to get your own thinking and that of other men out of the way so that you will hear what God is revealing to you from his word instead and that is part of walking in the Spirit and not the flesh, for the flesh has to do with your natural mind and effort and which is worthless.
You need to read 1 Corinthians 2 very closely, for Paul very clearly instructs true believers to utilize the mind of Christ instead of their own minds and this is available to every true believer and not just me and there are many who are learning this way also but all of them are a different levels in this process.