It is sad that Christianity has so destroyed your self-worth.
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Sin destroyed my self worth 50 years ago.
Jesus gave me value and worth in that he paid for me, with his own life. God validated it by raising Jesus from the dead.
Thus, God decided that I'm worth the life of the eternal Son of God.
that's way more than anything i could have ever done, or considered myself worth.
This is why I feel we should fight Christianity. It is a religion that convinces its followers that they - and indeed the entire world population - are so thoroughly reprehensible that they all deserve to be tortured in hell for eternity.
Thereby ensuring that you never actually learn the truth, and thus guaranteeing that you, and your fellow "believers" spend your and their eternity in that hell you despise so desperately.
That takes a serious level of what wikirational called "tactical stupidity."
Why would you advocate for your eternal torment when the solution to escape its cause is given by the very one you despise so desperately?
Willful ignorance
is the state and practice of ignoring any sensory input that appears to contradict one's of. At heart, it is almost certainly driven by confirmation bias and/or avoidance of cognitive dissonance.
Willful ignorance differs from ordinary “ignorance“ — when someone is simply
unaware of something — in that willfully ignorant people are fully
https://rationalwiki.org/wiki/Knowledge of facts, resources, and sources, but refuse to acknowledge them. Indeed, calling someone "ignorant" shouldn’t really be a pejorative, but intentional and
willful ignorance is an entirely different matter. In practice, though, the word "ignorance" has often come to mean "willful ignorance", and indeed, in many non-English languages, the word based on the same stem ("ignore") actually carries that meaning.
Willful ignorance is sometimes referred to as
tactical stupidity.
What you claim to hate is guaranteeing you spend your eternity where you think is so bad.
The irony is that neither God nor Jesus want you to go there. They presented a plan to make sure that nobody HAS to go to hell, nor the lake of fire.
Jesus died, to satisfy the righteousness of a Holy God, and paid the penalty of his judgment against sin.
To demonstrate that God himself is satisfied with what Jesus did, he raised him from the dead.
The only people who go to hell are those who reject Jesus.