@civic
I’m a black and white type of person, I cannot stand grey areas. Which was one of my major problems with being an Arminian, before I knew what an Arminian was.
I just couldn’t connect the dots as an Arminian, but couldn’t stay away either, and I was convinced that when it comes to God, the dots connect! I was at the end of my ropes as an Arminian. It was then, not sure how long after that I was given eyes to see scripture in the reformed view. All of a sudden, the dots started to connect.
Of course, there are some grey areas, and I finally come to the place after wrestling for a long time to where I realize I’m just not going to get an answer on something in particular. But until I come to that point. I just can’t stop wrestling.
Those grey areas I just have to live with, knowing God has a secret council.